Dear summer #19
Friends.. I have a few. Well there are at least 10 of them, even if I hang out with only four of them more frequently than the others, they are still there.
'Young and unemployable
Lonely, drunk and beautiful
We're so sick and I'm so tired.'
It's a phrase that fits me right now. I plan a lot, but have no intention to do any of it or meet anyone.
Maybe am I really about to get sick again or maybe I'm just a boring stay inside kind of person. But sit for hours listening to music or the sound of nature while I'm reading a book or painting something, that's life. No texts no phone calls, just me and my thoughts. I'm so tired and no matter how much I rest, it never seems to be enough.
'I'm not getting any younger
My bones aren't getting any stronger'
Once again. Fits me just as perfect as the first phrase.
I really want to meet my friends deep down inside, I hate to be alone.
But like I talked about, with a friend of mine the other night (who's on your way to France, maybe already there, but I think you should come home instead ;) I miss you <3 ) that nothing happens if we doesn't do anything. If I don't text my friends or call them, everything will just die out, because they would never do it. Is it worth it? I want to believe it is, and so did my friend. But, I still wonder. Maybe like you wondered where the letter from yesterday went? Well I never wrote one, sorry for that. But I promise to write tomorrow if I ain't sick in fever or something.
Lots of love M