- Live on and be yourself -

The second thing is strangely enough ASMR videos. 
Have been sick and home for most days and the only way to get to sleep, since my mind never shuts of, ASMR works perfectly. I have insomnia or at least I think I do, since I've had sleeping problems since I've been around fifteen. At that time, music always helped, after that, it was classical music so that the lyrics wouldn't  distract or make me began to sing along. Then I started with mindfulness and when that didn't work either, I was about to give up. Until I through a youtuber found ASMR. There are many who do ASMR, some better than others and it doesn't fit everyone, so don't be suprised when you look it up, cause its pretty special. 
But it seems to suit me, at least for now, until I find something else that helps me fall asleep.

Got a question the other day when I explained that I do much stuff in my life, to escape reality. 
"What's that you are escaping from?" And the truth is actually quite a lot in my life, but I have my solutions to it, so I don't notice what I'm running from untill my solutions stops working. As for now, my hours of sleep is not many per night. No matter when I wake up, I fall asleep not at 2am and have for a month. 
So yes, I flees reality to not fall apart. Able to sleep, get to work on time and stay in shape to live a happy life.

And the last thing, is the book by the youtuber Clara Henry - Jag har mens hurså? 
An amazing book, so if you haven't yet, buy it!